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Humor ~ Shad Wolf ~ Friends 1


Shad Wolf, the black wolf, and friends.

I'm dark and asocial like a wild animal; I never thought that I'd make a page like this. But I met very nice people. Neat~


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sz235711 ~ Darkness & light
Optimus ~ Unoffendable robot + Part 2
warlord90 ~ Have a skullicious day!
ZombieQueen ~ Let's fight
warlord90 ~ Blonds and beer
Th4n05 ~ Being different
Optimus ~ Tank
Gorilly.Grodd ~ Gorilla family
sz235711 ~ Rainbow



sz235711 ~ Darkness & light

(I don't want to reveal the ending so I'll write the keywords after.)

Shad Wolf's friends ~ sz235711 ~ Meeting half way ~ between darkness and light

Thank you. For meeting me half way.


SZ always put nice pictures on my wall, beautiful wolves but with animated sparkles, lots of it. Being a dark creature, it can melt my eyes off, because it's so heart warming that I can't stop looking at it.

So I drew her with sparkles.

I was looking at her wall *cough*stalking*cough* and I saw her have giggling fun with her other friends. I felt like I was unable to offer her something like that, even at my best mood, I'm really creepy.

I love it, I enjoy pitch black stuff because that's what I lived. I want to connect to my own reality in a humoristic way instead to be in denial. I love sarcastic of humor. But sometimes I just can't be more than dark, even if I want to, I'm not able to go in the light. Trying to force myself to cheer up that much requires so much energy and I just burn out exhausted.

SZ is so shiny that I felt like I can't reach her, but she comes to meet me half way.

When I whimpered it was out of frustration for my own inability to reach the warmth that I longed for, I didn't expect anyone to care enough to answer my plea.

I growled at you, scared, every step of the way, but you hugged me anyway.

Thank you~


Most people expect everyone to be so pleasantly happy and shun people with abnormal circumstances because it scares them... they abandon people in pain, even though they could handle it and share some joy, with people who are far past their limit and could use some... But they expect them to do all the work and go to them, that's just unfair and even cruel.

Of course someone who dwells in self pity and doesn't want to make a single step is just as bad. Thinking that being a soul sucking black hole is poetic, or hurting themselves on purpose, you can't save people who don't want to be saved. They don't deserve to have you do all the work for them; they'll just throw your light in the black hole all over again and watch it swirl to nothingness.

I don't want to be saved, I love the dark, it's where I belong. But I'm proud of going to meet her half way. Because being warm and fuzzy can be fun too, and it's nice to have balance.

I felt like I was drowning in my own shadow lately, when I remembered my pain, haunted by my past.

Thank you for helping me burry my bad memories with better ones.



Sometimes I'm anti-social, but most of the time I'm asocial because I need to rest or I'm just not able to fit among people. They just won't accept or understand me, because we were forged by different circumstances. And I've been alone so long I don't know how to be with people, all those unspoken social conventions, I don't know or understand them.

I resent what a lot of people for what they did to me, to each other and the world... enough to be a misanthrope. (Badly enough to use a wolf as avatar instead of a human.) Yet, I can still get lonely and appreciate an individual.

But it's hard for me to trust, be approached and return what they have to share, sometimes I just can't because I don't have it in me... Maybe because when I was a child at the mercy of people, those who were supposed to seed my heart and help it grow chose to put something worse than usual in me. I'm to blame too because the seeds may be weeds or poisonous plants, but it's mine and all I have, I can't destroy it and end up empty...

So I enjoy watching it grow, even if it's monstrous. I fought against it but it has its purpose, being protected behind a wall of thorns can be necessary. Sure, I'd prefer sunflowers and roses. I have some but I don't have much to give, and sometimes I just plain can't.

I feel like my friends would be better off without my dark self, but I wouldn’t be better off without them.

I want to help make friendship grow, but I need help with the seeds.

I'm grateful to my friends who saw a dark and dry field but decided to make it blossom anyway. Even if that requires more work than just rip off flowers from an abundant field until it's barren. I met many people like that, then they walk away without ever planting a seed, and they sure won't shed a drop after the devastation. That can make the gardener antisocial. But I'll treasure the people who can share the work with me, that's how true friendship blossoms.


PS about the art quality:

I'm trying to overcome my obsessive perfectionism. It's pointless since people invented false blames to vent their frustrations on me, even when they couldn't find a credible excuse, to look just instead of plain cruel.

When I ruined my health to become more than humanly possible, in the hopes to stop people from tormenting me, by giving them what they demanded... I finally saw that their sadism and inability to appreciate had nothing to do with what I deserve. It wasn't about my worth but theirs.

I never had to please the ungrateful or even allow such assholes anywhere near me. Even if I was unworthy they still could have acted like good people, if they were. But they were the bad ones all along! That's their responsibility to improve, not mine. I did my best and beyond, but it only made them more abusive by rewarding it! I understand now, but it's hard to stop beating myself up over the tiniest flaw after being so trained to allow it.

I wish I could offer you a heartwarming utter beauty.


But I don't have the ability to draw
proportions and shapes accurately. I'm embracing my limitations by drawing stick characters, to alleviate the pressure of perfection and enjoy the process, instead to torture myself too much. It helps me dare to create. So I made it look crappy on purpose, but I still put a lot of heart into it.

Even if it's not perfect, I think I expressed my idea and feelings comprehensively, and hopefully I've done well enough to make you smile.

Enjoy the comic~
Lisa Of Shades
6 April 2015

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Unoffendable robot + Part 2

(“This guy’s an asshole. I’ll insult him.”) “You’re an AS...” “Thank you for the nice compliment.” Robots. Can’t be offended. They kill you before you get the chance.

Optimus Prime ~ Unoffendable robot ~ asshole insult ~ as ~ gun shot ~ dead guy

“Are you going to eat that?” “Robots don’t eat.” “Thanks!” “No need to thank me.” Wolves. Opportunists don’t waste a feast. Morality is relative. Somebody’s tragic loss can be someone else’s victory party.

Optimus Prime ~ Shad Wolf ~ Morality is relative ~ Eat corpse

My friend Optimus is really like that. I envy him for not being as over emotional as I can be, but he's been a soldier so argues and insults probably feel like child's play for him, compared to something more deadly. But if I could kill my enemies, I'd probably pretty relaxed too.

It's fun how's there is the word "as" if "asshole", turning a stinking hole into the best card, and an insult into a compliment.

I wasn't in the comic, so I made a part 2. I first wrote "You're welcome" but he often says that there's no need to thank him, that it's just natural and everybody should be nice. Well, not everybody is, and I enjoy my life more when I'm grateful instead to dismiss good things by taking them for granted.

Being able to be over sad has a silver lining, I can be super happy too. Being a rock can be a great, but it sounds a bit cold in part 2. I enjoy being warm and fuzzy sometimes. People get scared of me when I get cold. Maybe because I stare at them hungrily.

During war, someone looses and someone wins, on both sides... We don't all want the same thing, so we fight over our differences, trying to prove who's best... and when we want the same thing, we fight to have it all... We probably just like fighting. If we stop fighting, what's left is to curl up and die, so maybe that's just the drive to live.

There's no good and bad. Just the way we look at it. It's nice to have ideals, but they won't protect themselves. We have to fight to make them happen.

Enjoy the irony of going to war for peace and killing to live~
Lisa Of Shades
9 April 2015

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warlord90: Have a skullicious day!

Have a skullicious day!

Shad Wolf's friends ~ warlord90 ~ The punisher ~ skull delicious skullicious ~ ice cream diabetes sugar

My friend warlord90 uses the punisher as avatar and theme. I wanted to write the quote but then I decided to add a picture. He's a nice guy, I'd like to get to know him better.


I'm a health nut and ice cream has so much sugar that it causes diabetes. It's not even cream, that would actually be okay, it's flour and artificial flavors... and lots of sugar.

I took the ice cream from healthline. They claim that diabetics can eat ice cream. It's like saying that junkies can snore cocaine every once in a while. By definition, they're people who can't control how much they consume until it ruins their health.

If diabetics were able to control how much sugar they eat, they wouldn't have become that way in the first place. Alcoholics can't have a drink every once in a while, it's called falling off the wagon.

Telling diabetics that they can eat sugar, or that they HAVE to if they get hypoglycemic, would addict them to sugar all over again. All the progress that you've made to heal would be set backwards. When you crave sugar, you actually crave vitamin C, to handle stress for your adrenals, which also control blood sugar... so eat some veggies and fruits in a side dish salad, with your meat... but trash the grains and forget sugar!

So why not enjoy plain bio Greek yogurt with added peanuts and berries. It will be full of nutrition instead of poisons.

Enjoy~
Lisa Of Shades
9 April 2015

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ZombieQueen ~ Let's fight

"Brains!!!" Let’s fight For our undead lives! It may not be much, but it’s OURS!

Shad Wolf's friends ~ ZombieQueen ~ Zombies go to war

It's a parody of war speech. It looks happier and better than I planned. I was worried that the black wolf would look too much like a horse, but I managed to draw it decent enough to be obvious.

The 2nd zombie does a thumb up.
The 3rd offers a hug.
The last has a bow tie made of flesh and jumps clicking his heels happily.

We're both too sick to work. Sometimes I felt unworthy to live and useless. I decided to fight for my health, not with destructive drugs, but by promoting health, by giving my body what's needed to survive.

Now I can even find the energy to draw!

It's nice to know someone who understands me. I like how humoristic she's being with her avatar. Severe adrenal fatigue has been described as the living dead, I know how it feels. I'm more of a werewolf or vampire, so it add variety to have a fan of zombies as a friend~ She's awesome.

Enjoy~
Lisa Of Shades
12 April 2015

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warlord90 ~ Blonds and beer

Fap material. Enjoy~

Shad Wolf's friends ~ warlord90 ~ The punisher ~ blonds and beer ~ big breasts boobs bikini

He posted pictures of "sexy" women on my wall. I'm a wolf so that would be bestiality; I'm not into some brain dead drunk blond slave snoring varnish... I'd prefer intelligent dark haired women with latex who can make me beg for mercy~ Like Bayonetta. So this is my revenge. Try to fap to those bitches, friend~ (I made them look as awful as possible on purpose, that's why he's drawn better.)

I found really cool pictures about the punisher at comicvine.

Enjoy~
Lisa Of Shades
12 April 2015

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Th4n05 ~ Being different

"Do you want to see my secret cave?" "Wow! We could hide so much food down here!" "Or dead bodies~" "That’s what I meant." Being different and creepy. Some people will hate you for it, and some others will love you for it. Give your attention to the ones that make you happy.

Shad Wolf's friends ~ th4n05 ~ Kisuke Arahara ~ bleach ~ secret cave

My friend th4n05 use the avatar Kisuke Arahara from Bleach. We had a conversation about not liking the same stuff as most people and how it can be hard to make friends.

Enjoy~
Lisa Of Shades
12 April 2015

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Optimus ~ Tank

"For peace!" BOOM! "SHRIEKS!!! Okay! I'll leave you in peace."
Tank you.
For being my friend~

Optimus Prime ~ Shad Wolf ~ Thank you ~ Tank explosion

It's a pun for thank you with the word tank. He's in the army and uses the transformer Optimus Prime avatar. He's been incredibly supportive and helpful in my emotionally unstable moment instead to desert me. If we want peace, we have to fight against the people who want to disturb it. But staying with good friends and ignoring the enemies can work sometimes, when it doesn't, a good blast in the face is very effective too.

Enjoy and thank you~
Lisa Of Shades
23 April 2015

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Gorilly.Grodd ~ Gorilla family

Hello Gorilly.Grodd! You look pretty TASTY

Shad Wolf friends ~ Gorilly.Grodd ~ gorilla family ~ you look pretty tasty

She used a super villain gorilla as avatar; I thought she was a guy. Then she changed for a cute girl avatar. I was very surprised. I told her to be careful, now that people know that she's female, she might end up with a lot of dogs salivating while looking at her.

I meant sexual harassment, but I keep making hunger references. So I did a play on words with how pretty she looks now.

I took the picture from Sanctuary gorilla forest camp at rhinoafrica.

I said her name to make sure that people don't think that I was talking to talk to the gorillas and about to eat the baby. It would be a waste of meat potential, so I'm patient and let them grow~

Enjoy~
Lisa Of Shades
23 April 2015

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sz235711 ~ Rainbow


I’m so happy by your side that I would even follow you through a rainbow.

Shad Wolf's friends ~ sz235711 ~ happily chasing you through a rainbow

I use a wolf made of pure darkness as avatar, but sz235711 is always so full of sparkles. She pours them into my heart and soul.

My first idea was to paint colors over a white wolf and write: "I chased a leprechaun and ran through a rainbow. He offered me a pot of gold but I can't eat that. He tasted funny."

She's been so supportive lately that when I saw this picture I couldn't resist changing the quote for gratitude instead of random humor.

The art is Two Rainbow Wolves by lucky978 at deviantart, she's auctioned the original on eBay starting at 1$, 4 people fought over it and she got 25$ for it.

Enjoy~
Lisa Of Shades
23 April 2015

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