Uncommon sense ~ How to suicide ~ Freezing
one is tragic...
Elderly people sometimes wander out in the middle of the night and end
up freezing to death.
People dismiss and mock them, thinking that they were just senile and
not knowing what they were doing.
But I've done this when I was just a little girl... I knew that I would
die, I didn't, but I sure was longing for it.
I was so abused both mentally and physically, and even sexually... I was
trying desperately hard to make it stop by trying to deserve better, but
I always did! I was trying to please, living only for others, when I should
have taken care of myself.
Being good at all cost only made it worst! Only revolt
made that hell stop! I wasn't a carpet that you
could walk over unpunished anymore.
Being kind to mean people only reward and encourage them. You become an
even more defenseless and easy victim. If people can get the easy way
ripping and crushing someone for their own gain, most people are assholes
so they will. You can try to be a better person
please do, but don't tolerate people's shit
you'll be turned into a public dumping ground, opening the door to bullying
and mobbing... As much as people enjoy that sadistically, that's no way
to feel appreciated!
It will only make you very cruel to yourself!
So be good to yourself first, and don't try to please others at
your own peril. People are ingrates, they have plenty of reasons to be
pleased already! If they're not, there's nothing you can do about it.
They nurture bitterness and it's their problem to live with.
We reap what we sow in our own hearts.
just make the crops stronger.
How people threat you have NOTHING to do with your
worth or what you deserve
. It's about what was in the people's
heart and their will...Even your God won't try to change that, so don't
even try. Just do your own best, for yourself, someone will find a way
to love and hate you no matter what you do, good or bad as well.
People will call you bad and selfish to black mail
you into becoming their slaves
. Don't fall for their abuse. Of
course share if you are in a relationship
with a loved one. If you never return anything, they'll end up empty and
whiter away... You'll loose what you love in them even if they stay.
Bullies have to be very weak and pathetic to prefer to make someone even
more miserable than they feel, than have the guts to do anything about
themselves and their situation... They don't even deserve the time of
day, so certainly not your care or for you to redefine your own worth
for them... Tell them to shut up
and ignore them.
There's a whole lot of that with the elderly... no matter how senile they
could be, they'd still feel the cold and step back in the shelter... but
they choose to die in the gutter, because they are threaten
even worst than stray dogs
They can have their most basic needs and dignity denied, like getting
washed, or have their money stolen... when they worked hard to the bone
to earn it, so they'd would be safe during their old age, and worked so
hard they they're too sick to take care of themsleves now... Now that's
If you are a child, please hold on
won't be at their mercy forever. When you'll be old enough to be independent
and work legally, put them all behind you forever without a even word.
Until them just pity them and learn from their horrible mistakes towards
you. They're just foolish humans. Being older doesn't make them right,
it should make them more mature and responsible, but we're not in an ideal
Don't accept this, ever.
Try to ask for help, but only count on yourself.
Child services are bad... I've been in a foster home and I felt like a
cash cow... but at least no one abused me even if it was far from warm...
but some are.
If your daddy forces you to suck his pathetic cock, then
be a bad girl and bite down!
I'll be very proud of you. You might
get slapped around, but he sure will hesitate before raping you again.
The police are in denial and will rather believe obvious cheesy lies than
a horrible truth...
People wrongly will try to blame you to:
Don't believe that shit!!! No
one deserve this!
- Avoid sharing your pain to protect themselves by denying you sympathy
- Hold on to the lie that we live in a just world where we get what
- Feel safe believing that it can't happen to them, because unlike you,
they're SO fantastic... But that makes them monsters!
But expect people to be that stupid, and even to make it worst even if
they try to help... A simple hug can go a much longer way...
shit just happens because someone needed to take a dump, and had a terrible
The smell of farts spreads, it's just the natural ways of life~ Try to
have a better impact in the world but:
Don't worry about it.
I asked for help but the guilty said to the rescuer, in my face: "Oh
don't believe her, she's insane." If I was it was from the abuse!
Children who suffer grow mature extremely quickly, that sure destroys
any fantasies, even when you try to escape in one all day... you know
more about reality than anyone.
A cop even accused me of being a delirious junky or mentally ill because
he refused to believe how badly I've been sexually assaulted out of the
blue by strangers. 4 times in the same day!!! I was wearing a long medieval
dress that covered my entire body, ankles, wrists and neck. I didn't look
like a slut but like a classy princess. I was going to a special event.
People don't understand that porn actresses agree and are paid BEFORE
the movie and you can't do that to someone! Not without having your throat
punched or eye stabbed with a pen! Read on self
at the hubbardtwppd cop site; my favorite is the Throat
I got dragged by the hairs and groped painfully hard by force... The cop
refused to believe that it was possible, but he did psychological violence
himself, it was so bad that it was hard to believe. It was worst than
the abuse, because they were PAID to protect me, not make it worst.
I only called them to have information about my rights and what I should
do, I didn't want it to happen to someone else. But I did the right thing,
I got angry. I glared with the intent to kill and that alone made one
of them run for his life. A firm "let go of me" worked for another,
being polite only made him laugh.
Hatred has its purpose: to save yourself from harm,
not to harm innocents.
Protect and defend yourself by any resources and any means necessary.
But only expect it from yourself and do it.
The way out is coming... hold on to the thought that no
one deserves this
and soon you'll be free
Make sure to have the conviction that you refuse to accept that shit,
or you'll fall right back in it with someone else... we go for what is
familiar even when it's horrifying. Don't be scared to be a little lost
for a while until you discover what you really need.
If it gets really bad you can always kill them in their
sleep with a hammer.
People will think you're crazy...
But there's no videogames or movies like this... Horror movies made me
discover my passion for biology and medical research! Romance movies make
me want to shoot myself out of loneliness, because there's no way it can
happen in life, not like that, not that cheesy. Couples are a cooperative.
You bring in the strength of both, but also the problems of both…
you help each other, but also cause each other issues. And that’s
the best case scenario… A couple is just one more thing to deal
with, not a magical solution for all things.
But watching someone pretend to get sliced and diced with a chainsaw,
with impressively realistic sculptures, I then look at my existence and
think "Hm, my life isn't so bad after all..." When I want to
kill someone with an ax, it's because they messed with me bad! But if
I let my anger out and put them back to their places with simple words,
Movies are not to blame and wanting to be safe either... abusive people
are. Self neglect makes it possible. You and I will know... that there
are far worst tortures than being murdered
. But it's a last resort,
there's other ways to defend yourself before that. Believing firmly that
you don't deserve people's shit, or don't want it either way, is a great
start. Not spreading shit around you
best way to change that the word, you'll at least change your own. Don't
fill your head with crap
, even if you like it, or at least balance
it with something else
Don't kill your parents if they punish you for doing something stupid
that will harm you if they don't break the habit... Or for making it harder
for them, when they could really appreciate your help
taking care of your home too. Sometimes it's hard to know that we're hurting
ourselves, we need to take a few steps back to see. Others might be able
to notice that the worst is coming before you; punishing you could be
the only way to spare you learning it the hardest way. Sometimes love
needs to be hard on you.
Some of the things that I had to do to save myself broke my heart, but
it was necessary.
Letting your kids eat nothing but cake to stop
tantrums isn't love, it will kill them slowly and painfully. Saying no
and even spanking can be necessary to spare them that pain. But it
has to be done in a constructive manner or it will just make it worst.
It's best to explain and reason first.
People can't know unless
you tell them your needs and the impact their actions actually have on
you. "Hell was paved with good intentions" they're no guarantee
or a good result, you need to open your mind to the idea that you could
be wrong, but doing your best is a great start to find out how to do it
It's hard to be a child, yet you'll grow towards better times. Your whole
life awaits you and is full of mysteries, which can be a great inspiration
of hope and despair; you choose how you welcome your
But when you're an elder... it's the end of the line. Your health probably
won't get better, you'll get more used up and sicker... so you'll be weaker
and even more at the mercy of vultures... There are services and organizations
for help against abuse... you can at least try. The shame doesn't belong
to you and they must be brought under an accusing eye. And if worst come
to worst, even a denture can be effective to bite the hell out of those
bastards... you worked too hard for this shit, it's
supposed to be your well deserved rest.
But don't treat employees like slaves who owe you to obey on command,
or you'll bring their vengeance upon yourself. Or they will accumulate
it with a smile and it will end up exploding on someone else... It might
be why it happened to you... so try to have compassion for them to
break the cycle
and not let it affect you too deeply. Don’t
take it personally if you really didn't hurt their feelings first. People
have bad days and can be desperate. But still, don’t let that person
make it worst for both of you.
If you did something wrong, try to ease their pain with an apology. It's
no magic word, yet kind feelings can be; but not always. They can even
make it worst with bad people, but the good ones deserve
, and it's the only way to ascertain which one they are.
Be respectful and grateful, you'll enjoy everything more!
It doesn't matter if they win, don't make it easy. Stand
up to them
, for yourself, even in a wheel chair or bed ridden;
even if you "fail"
probably keep trying; because you can't change the fact that they're assholes)
that will be good enough
to keep your dignity.
You have my deepest empathy.
"Elder abuse, or the abuse of older adults, is often defined as any
act or omission
that harms a senior or jeopardizes his or her health
or welfare. The World Health Organization defines abuse of older adults
as “a single or repeated act, or lack of
, occurring in any relationship where there is
an expectation of trust that causes harm or distress
to an older person”. Elder abuse can take place in the home,
in other residential settings, or in the community. It is estimated that
between 4-10% of Ontario’s seniors experience some type of abuse."
But if you take into account the intimidated silences and people's denial
even when reported... there are way more. Abuse is omnipresent in the
world for everyone.
You have to FIGHT to make your own place and to keep it.
Or you'll be left out in the cold...
Well, feel free to wait until winter or buy a giant freezer... maybe you'll
fall asleep peacefully.
But I tried that to give the mercy of euthanasia to my sick fishes...
They had an expression of distress and horror in their ice cube... I tried
to drop them in freezing cold water to make it faster, thinking that it
was the tiny cup and dark freezer that pained them. But they became tense
under the shock, with painful spasm trying to move... and died struggling
until the very end. It was heart breaking. As long as they fight for life,
I let them live. Somehow, even a deadly sickness is
less awful than dying...
Freezing is a slow and sad death.
But I can still make it funny:
Try freezing yourself in a meat refrigerator. Maybe you'll get confused
for a cow/pig and it will improve the taste of fast food "ham"burgers.
(They're never ham, how suspicious!)
Ha! Joke's on you!
Watch the movie Soylent
, it's made of people for people.
Oh hell someone kinda invented that crap: Soylent
(because it's not food!) made from powdered
starch, rice protein, olive oil, and raw chemical powders. (Because chemicals
kill us so they must be good, right?)
It was designed by software engineer Rob Rhinehart (even robots wouldn't
thrive on this) to be a low cost alternative to traditional food that
can be prepared and consumed with less time and activity. (Because nutritional
deficiencies and body decay is so convenient!)
Lacking background in chemistry or nutrition (yeah they pretend to help
you make your life easier but they have no clues what they are doing)
he developed the formula through research (you didn't do enough, grains
destroy the gut, are toxic and don't have vitamins and minerals) and self-experimentation.
(at least he'll suffer and die too.)
Did you know that some companies add yoga mattress to the meat to increase
profit? It’s probably good for the mind, right? They just cover
it up with artificial flavors and paint looking sauces. You sure love
to be tricked don’t you!
Just take diet pills if you're still hungry, right? You wouldn't want
to eat all those green filling vegetables... the fiber could make you
Better buy laxatives or make yourself throw up for that...
Now that's too dumb to deserve health. No wonder you're reading this.
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Lisa Of Shades
4 September 2013