Uncommon sense ~ How to suicide ~ Overdose
This might be the most peaceful
also the easiest to save you
against your will.
Since you want to fall asleep in the eternal slumber… I’d
think of sleeping pills
above all else.
But you can use any poison… vermin killers or even drink bleach
but that would be way too painful.
Grains destroy your gut slowly, making you unable to feed your vital organs…
it’s slow and agonizingly distressing (maybe that’s why you
want to die…) so I wouldn’t take something that only destroys
the gut to kill myself.
You want the poison to go in your blood and shut down
the heart or something vital
… Damaging your liver of kidneys
wouldn’t kill you right away. Look at alcoholics, ethanol is a poison
but it takes them forever to get this over with… slowly but surely
though. But your whole point is precisely to stop
, so you’ll need something more
Well, to stop the suffering, vitamin C does miracles
2-4g for Adrenal
(see my health section), especially 10g when in pain,
or much more if needed...
But to stop the heart
, I don't know... heart
most likely. Dumb Pharma. If it harms healthy people,
I don't think it can really help the sick.
If it's just a cry for attention
, you really
don't want what they'll do to you. It looks invasive, suffocating, choking...
You’d gag but they’d just push harder. Imagine a huge dick
being forced way past your lungs... If you want to suicide isn’t
that to avoid suffering? It doesn’t look very effective… If
you like pain, find a dating site about BDSM or something. Take
care of yourself, yourself, already!
You're not a baby and you
Nicholas James Vujicic can say “I love living
life. I am happy.” with great conviction
, without any limbs,
THEN SO CAN YOU!
Read his story at lifetunez
See him live to the fullest at YouTube:
at yourself after watching this
Vujicic - Attitude is Altitude.com / Life Without Limbs.org
Incredible Love Story of Nick Vujicic and His Wife (He patiently
waited for a compatible companion to have sex, to honor her. He didn't
throw himself at anyone, out of desperation, seeking temporary pleasure
to reassure his insecurities. He chose to believe in himself, in her,
and in life to give him the opportunity. Slowly building such strength,
one step and day at a time, with conviction, is very liberating and
Limbless father Nick carries his baby Kiyoshi James Vujicic
(I don’t advocate any religion. It doesn’t matter what you
call your inner voice of reason, compassion and survival; as long as
you find it inside, listen and believe in yourself & in life.)
- His site: attitude
"What would you do if you have stumbled? Give up or get up?"
"It is in the middle of difficulty that lies opportunity"
"Our tribulations no matter how insignificant it may seem as compared
to that of Vujicic are necessary in making us stronger at heart. It is
only through hardships that we truly understand what joy is."
“Your attitude determines your altitude.”
"Life is more than sadness and difficulties, wealth and comfort.
The real currency of life is that of our characters and its strength"
"instead of harping on our limitations, we should make the attempt
to treasure the gifts we have been bestowed"
"embrace happiness, learn to let nothing stop you and live to the
If I was a dictator, my first reflex would probably be to kill people
like him at birth, to preserve the integrity of our genetics, life is
already hard enough. But thanks to him I humbly see that it would be a
huge mistake. A perfect body is no guarantee of a great spirit. It's
hardship that makes us stronger
; trials are necessary teachers
and can be positive, when we choose to learn wisdom from them. Loss doesn’t
mean the end, but a new and often better beginning.
He has more positive reach upon the world, guts and soul than many who
think about suicide, and kill themselves, for way less than his daily
He should gross me out, but he has such a warm smile
that I find him gorgeous~
That's the purest expression of gratitude and
SMILE DAMN YOU!!!
The most important time to
smile isn't when everything is easy and happy... but when you have too
many reasons to cry. Smiling in adversity will lift
Happiness requires an effort, if you don't do so little,
then you'll feel like hell even when everything is great. Make
the effort to appreciate and enjoy!
Eventually it will become natural,
a second nature, and you'll attract it too.
He's at the mercy of everyone else... at least you
can do everything yourself!
You can fight, run, eat, wipe your
own ass, and crawl in your own bed... Just sleep
it will pass!!!
you're free to choose who you want to be, and the best that you want to
fight for. If your best is suicide, then REJOICE at
least you have hands to open the bottle!
If that's really the best that you have to offer, then thank
But you probably just worked too hard
rest now. But you don't have to die to sleep.
Just turn off the phone and computer and put a notice on the door. "Wake
me at your own risks~" The unknown scares the shit out of the people,
it's the best threat.
But if you're sure that you want the sleep of the dead:
Don’t buy a dozen bottles of sleeping pills in one go at the same
pharmacy, or it will raise a big red flag
will probably call the police and not allow you to leave, even without
any merchandise. Well, they probably won’t go that far, people prefer
to look the other way and mind their own business. They have enough to
deal with from their own crap without yours. But maybe you’ll meet
someone who actually cares for a change, so that would get
in the way of the plan…
You can buy one bottle from many places
far away preferably. Maybe the fresh air
make you feel better; it’s a nice adventure
to go hunting.
A whole bottle might suffice, but I think they sell them small enough
to prevent being sued for making suicide too easy. Maybe taking too
many would make you throw up
though… I like the number 3.
Just roll a dice and buy that many bottles or something.
I saw a movie where the woman lied on her bed after taking many, and then
she combined it with a paper bag
. Not plastic
to stop you from breathing, but paper. So she could still breathe but
the carbon monoxide slowly builds up in the bag, enhancing the sleeping
effect. Like hyperventilating people do, breathing into a bag, since it’s
actually the balance of oxygen with CO2 that is natural, too much oxygen
is just as bad for the brain as too little; unless you want to die.
So she went peacefully in her Sunday’s best. It was almost poetic,
it made me cry. But it’s a movie, so you probably will throw
up, panic right before you sleep
, perhaps feeling as if you fell
through your body, bed and floor… and call an
Then they’d shove tubes down your throat, pump
out your stomach, and lock you up
staring at you like a weird animal
for a while.
I’d rather live free…
but feel free to try. If it really
was easy, then wonder why so many people get pumped and survive…
I guess even the easiest of the easier isn’t
(And now I just broke my rule to avoid using the same word over and over,
like an illiterate, but that was funny~)
My experience with drugs
I noticed that my survival instinct outsmarted me no matter what I did,
I thought of dying of an overdose of recreational drugs
Some people do by accident… So I thought of starting with pot and
slowly move down the drain.
I had a blast!
But not because of the drug,
because I let go!
I stopped trying to control
everything and everyone and just enjoyed myself with nature.
Many people think that they can’t have fun or have courage without
some substance. But once you do just once, you can recreate
the feeling at will!
you’re stone or drunk! You'll get in happy
Who’s going to know?
Maybe those wanting to sell you that shit… they're not going to
like you for not being exploitable. But you can have
just as much fun
, if you just decide to and the
heck with what people will think.
They're full of bullshit themselves
I stopped because when I was drunk I was a way easier
target for sexual abuse
, always make sure
that you can still stand up and run for your life
. People won't
find you as cool, but again, it will be because they won't be able to
take advantage of you. Which is way cooler for
Unless you don't mind being raped and murdered
by someone really gross if it can be your ticker out of life... but that's
a horrible way to die... the price is way too high. And they could choose
to lock you up in their basements for years... selling you to old vicious
men night after night... Not a good way to throw
your life away.
That won’t be fun for you!
What is so bad about drugs is that it impairs
and you throw yourself mindlessly
in even more bullshit, trying to run away from it.
The company of junkies is even worst. A desperate slave who'd be ready
to do anything for his master... even sucking cocks to get the money to
get a fix even though he's not even into them... freaking gross... but
dangerous when they'reafter you
and your stuff...
My so called friends stole my stuff
, to resell
it and buy themselves drugs! The little I had to enjoy when I was dirth
poor, they even hit me and tried to get me raped
They never shared
when they had some drugs,
but claimed for mine when I had it… They didn’t do drugs because
it was fun anymore… but because of the withdrawal, they couldn’t
find the courage to live through it! So they kept going back
to the poison even when they didn't want to anymore
It was controlling them…
all their life turned around finding
their next fix…
A friend on mescaline cried, threw up and worst when she was out of drugs…
Not because her life was sad… but because her body was trying to
get rid of the poison and it hurts. When you take it again, ironically,
it stops the healing process, so you have the illusion
, when it only poisons you even deeper. Allergens do that
to. So if you crave something compulsively… it’s messing with
your brain badly. Don’t get fooled, sugar
is just like cocaine…
People really get messed up worst, if they try to feel better by trying
to force their body instead of actually healing it.
So if you do take drugs, make sure it kills you
Don't do it for fun, or you could get trapped...
It did teach me to let go and to choose myself some rules... But be careful
because it took me more than a year of wanting it everyday, almost
banging my head on walls
, because I missed it.
But when I truly BELIEVED that drugs wouldn't help
me, that it would even make things worst
didn't want them anymore, because I knew that I didn't need them.
I went for other things, completely guilt and bullshit
Look further, you'll find your happy ways too.
Learning the hippy ways helped me because I was trying to control what
couldn't be, and this attitude could only make me feel distress. But I
also suffered greatly from the people who fell for the other extreme:
doing anything anyhow without even trying to control their lives or themselves…
We all need to find balance.
All that bullshit was really motivating to stop
but the reason why I did was so unexpected that I was taken aback:
I knew that pot wouldn’t kill me, so my body didn’t resist
much. But one day I had a trauma and I wanted to go to the next level.
I wanted to start doing chemicals: mescaline. Even if I knew how badly
it was destroying my friend, physically and mentally.
I was counting on it!
Then it hit me… A vision that, for me, was god.
I visualize characters to represent and communicate with different parts
of my brain… it allows me to argue face to face with my emotional,
rational and now even primal side, since they don’t always agree…
My reason is represented by a male. He comforted me when even my own mother
denied me love, prefering to use me as a punching bag, the worst was the
mental attacks... But he always smiled at me, from the depths of my heart.
Always~ Everyday, for more than a decade...
So what I saw... is a vivid flash... is this warm and loving man... crying…
My guardian angel, my god, my inner self was crying… begging me
not to do this… not to kill myself with drugs. Begging me to live...
Seeing cry for the first time what was the incarnation of kindness and
love itself for me... was my wake up call.
I never, ever, touched drugs again.
That’s how much I love him, how much he matters to me, how much
I’m grateful to him.
And he's simply a part of me…
You don’t need to win the lottery or be famous to treasure and adore
something, someone or yourself. The people who actually have those things
are often even more miserable than you are… because
life balances itself out…
The more you have… the more
you have both joys and problems from it too. The bigger it is, the bigger
both of its sides are!
If you love someone… don’t make them
If you love yourself… stop thinking about how to hard yourself,
and start thinking about how you can make the pain
That’s what you actually want.
Just find a reason to enjoy life.
If you don't love yourself, start NOW.
You don't need a reason
or anyone's permission... all you have to do is to feel it. Just let go,
allow yourself, and love yourself in spite of everything. Just do your
best, and no matter how much you'll trip and fall as you try to walk forward,
which is perfectly natural
, you'll have
no reasons to feel shame.
The official price of something doesn't make its worth. As long as you
cherish something or someone, if it means something
for you, then it HAS value
. It doesn’t even have to be proven
real… I have a great time watching animes, and people find solace
in Gods or other imaginary friends.
Cherish your life, and it will have worth!
What matters is simply to enjoy~ To cherish~ To live.
If not, if you really just want to die, then roll a dice, and go buy that
number of sleeping pill bottles.
A big glass of water, and you’re all set~
Life can be even simpler if you simplify it~
Psychiatric drugs are the worst deadliest bullshit
If you're going to take drugs... please take vitamins, they're not, so
they're going to really fill your needs. But if you really want to mess
with your body with things that he doesn't need, smoke pot, at least it's
natural. But burning life to death won't put life into your body... so
chew it raw or something... or eat greens, they'll be tastier. It sure
makes me feel awesome!
Don't trust psychiatry, they're the worst pushers. Being endorsed by the
governement is more surpicious, not reassuring... Read my page Health
~ Conspiracies~ Folly of psychiatry
Or this page I found looking for pictures:
and Anti-Psychotic Drugs: Psychiatry damages people
The great artistic image was from this article Pregnant
teenager commits suicide after BOYFRIEND denied responsibility
That's really harsh, really heartless. But if you weren't prepared to
get pregnant you should have said no to sex. Or something like "Hey,
I have the oven and I'm not ready to cook you a baby!" or "Hey,
I have the gate to paradise here, I DECIDE who comes!"
You owe nothing and have nothing to prove. You don't need to deserve anything,
you have the all mighty vagina. You have the power
oven men, and of life itself! Use it wisely.
Obviously saying yes to be used as a sperm dumpster didn't get you the
love and affection that you were hoping for, even in a relationship. Love
doesn't conquer all; it's just another thing to deal
that can go very wrong!
People don't treat you bad because you're too fat or not slutty enough...
people do ONLY because they are JERKS!
nothing you can do about what's in their hearts! NOTHING! Just take care
of your own.
When you're treated bad, use it as an opportunity
to demand more respect
in the future, knowing that no one deserve
this can actually help your self esteem
you choose that angle instead. Revolt. Kick his balls. Get a DNA test!!!
MAKE HIM PAY!
She could have aborted or gave the baby in adoption... or met a new life
face to face and found her purpose in her baby. It was finally her chance
to get unconditional love, at least for a few years when being well fed
is all that matters to us (we should keep thinking this way), and she
People kill themselves every time they get aggravated...
Way too hasty.
Take a deep breath... and THINK!
Who knows maybe I'm immune because I suffered all my life... People who
have it easy chicken out even more; they don't know how to handle something
slightly bad because they were pampered so much all their lives. Bathing
in pain killers from the moment they started to grow their baby teeth.
But yeah, a baby is a huge responsibility, and being dumped for it is
really harsh. Still, think before you fuck, you could get fucked! No kidding...
She should have seen it coming.
Of course she had a severe emotional shock, plus the parasite feeding
off her, she probably had severe Adrenal
(see my health section)... But just
rest and take care already!
You'll get through anything if you give yourself some times and a chance!
But damn. Get over yourselves. They're called feelings.
They changed for the worst and they will change
again for the better.
LEARN TO COPE!
(My coping section: Grief
anger for balance & inner peace
Yes it's despicable and I'd rather die than be treated like this... that's
why I don't let people fuck with me!
You want the right to choose
the baby? It should
be BEFORE the cock gets into you!
expect one any minutes. Dumb asses. "Com'on, it will be fun~"
Maybe it's for the best, there's enough morons into the world... 2 birds
with one stone... too bad the guy is still alive. It's probably better
for the kid. One less that will suffer from really
stupid parents, with their heads up their asses.
Kids, don't take the shit from your parents too personal! See how they're
the ones who are fucked up!
Still, it's freaking horrible... pregnant with a baby... just kill the
kid with an abortion and live... or throw him in a dumpster if you have
to act like a moron... well, it would be a lesser evil! That would still
be an improvement...
Or at least castrate the guy first
, before killing
both of you! Or even better: the 3 of you, a great happy dead family.
Together forever eaten by worms! Really disgusting...
Well, if you're eating for two and want to die, make sure to take pills
for two too. I guess in the end she finally did something right, too bad
it was killing herself and the kid.
Betrayal: it's shit, and shit happens. Just flush
and move on.
Rejoice~ It can't happen again for the next 9 months, because you're already
It could have been worst; he could have given you a STD, especially HIV
(My most traumatizing article after the suicide
section.) That's for life, but becoming pregnant, at worst you only have
to endure the kid for only 18 years. It's only 1/4 of your life... as
many days as you spend menstruating, but all in one shot.
I think I just made it sound worst... well, that's what you get for doing
unprotected sex and not even taking the pill properly. But even both can't
stop life for sure... so yeah... think before
you screw, or you could get screwed!
Enjoy anyway somehow... I'll find a way... I always do. Or I'll forget
in 5 minutes... when my brain will reboot.
Ouh! I have blueberries to eat! (There you go!)
Overdose on antidepressants, death is all they're good
If you are depressed and want to die for sure, then go see a doctor and
he'll gladly almost force feed you antidepressants, without even testing
you for physical ills that cause depression, such as low blood sugar (hypoglycemia)
and low thyroid (hypothyroid, which happen to help your adrenal glands rest,
don't take synthetic hormones or they'll shrink even worst) and many, if
not all, vitamins and minerals...
So get antidepressants, but don't take them. Hide a pill everyday. Probably
not under your mattress because your mom could find them, on the floor under
the last drawer after removing it is probably overused... Get creative for
once in your life...
Get maybe 3 refill... should be enough, one bottle probably isn't, they
usually limit the amount of pills in any bottles for this reason...
Then take them all in one shot. That should kill you if you don't throw
Or take them as prescribed... they'll kill you or make you wish you were
dead even more. Healthy happy people volunteering for their trials died...
the RDA approved it anyway, I guess death is healthy for us... More about
this in my Depression
With help like this, who need to live on in a society like this.
If you wan to take antidepressants to feel happy, make sure you really love
being depressed because they cause depression too. Great product to keep
customers until they die... from the poison.
Try an OD on magnesium instead; probably impossible but you'll most likely
laugh your head off, pooping at worst... sounds like a funnier party. They're
vital to make neurotransmitters. Vitamin C is to handle stress. But feel
free to take antidepressants instead, if you're sure that you don't want
to feel better, ever.
Enjoy your death~
About the guy without limbs again... if I had someone kindly clothing me,
taking me to places, feeding me, bathing me, putting me to bed and cleaning
my shit... Maybe it'd be easier to be happy too... But that's also why they
probably usually die... Yet it sounds like an utter nightmare... You can
even choose to die...
Well, I can't really do it either. At least I don't have to bear my monster
of a mom for the rest of my life. Good riddance, bitch. I can't die, and
I can't kill you according to the law even if self defense could have made
it understandable back then, but I sure as hell don't have to tolerate her
in my life just because she shat me by accident because she was too stupid
to use protection or get an abortion. Maybe she never wanted me, but I want
myself... Maybe I don't want society right back at its rejection, but I
actually like life.
If it's not in my existence, then it's as good as gone. Get rid of what
torments you... punch people in the throat and kick them in the nuts, if
you're not laughing your head off by then, you can always kill yourself
knowing that at least you showed those jerks before you go.
Enjoy~ You only die once, unless you're Jesus or an asshole resurrects you.
Make sure to put a "Do not resuscitate" in your suicide note.
They never cared about your wishes when you were alive so don't hold your
breath once you're dead... you don't have to, you're dead! Or are you~~~
Maybe you’re just out of the matrix… waking into an even shittier
world where you have no hairs and have to eat porridge for the rest of your
Or trapped outside of time in an echo of your life, especially the shittiest
last moments... makes burning in hell sound warm and cozy.
Or there's nothing, no point in life, and you might as well stop trying
to be perfect and please everyone and have some fun~ By fun I don't mean
booze and orgies like ads tells you... but stuff that you like... no matter
how dorky it is... like... the stuff you like to do but don't know yet,
because some people told you that you should enjoy their shit instead, that
even themselves don't like, because some other fool told them they should.
Fun uh~ So... Forget that shit.
Enjoy your own~
Next page: Freezing
Lisa Of Shades
21 November 2013
Edited to put more about Nick Vujicic:
21 February 2014