Uncommon sense ~ How to
suicide ~ Provoking murder
don’t mean walking in a dark alley, that will probably only get you
raped. Even if it’s your fantasy I wouldn’t recommend it. There’s
a huge difference between passionate angry sex with a cutie and being hammered
by Godzilla, smelling like puke and shit.
No, what I mean is going on a happy killing spree until
someone guns you down
. That sure would help you vent all that bottled
anger that makes you wish you were dead, but I think you should go
easy in smaller doses
, as the stupid people come, by telling people
to shut the hell up and fuck off. More in my Health
~ Coping ~ Vent anger for balance & inner peace.
You can have more fun with a knife, an ax and a chainsaw... be creative!
But pointing a gun at a cop will obligate them more convincingly to shoot
you when you’re done with your fun.
Like I said in the Exploding
way: starting to hunt down pedophiles discretely, until one of them kills
you, would be a great way to improve the shitty world that we live in, and
I’d really appreciate that. It would be a
very useful way to die.
When I see teens go on a killing spree, I don’t have much sympathy
for their victims. I’ve been bullied, harassed… terrified to
step out of my home and I wished to die everyday… I wish they just
hit me, but the repetitive mental attacks really destroyed me. I couldn’t
even have friends or they’d be harassed too into oblivion… Think
about how hard it is for you to declare your love to someone… well,
I couldn’t or that person would be bullied until he rejected me, joined
the bullies, and did worst than I ever had to bear. Being tormented by someone
who hates you… I could deal with… But being tortured by someone
who finally loved me… … …
I have… no pity… for their deaths. The people who did the bullying
or mobbing weren’t the only guilty… the people who encouraged,
laughed and looked the other way when they had the power to stop this…
to stop something way worst than being beaten up and die… all
criminals, even by inaction!
You’re all fucking worthy of the
hell that you participated into… Mine lasted decades… My own
mom rejected me saying that life had to be fair and that I must therefore
deserve it… so she joined in… My own mother… gladly using
me as a punching bag for her bad breakups… because if the whole world
was doing it, then it had to be okay, I had to be only good for taking hits…
physically and worst… mentally.
And when I asked for help I was told that I was the problem… specialists
told me that my personality (which simply adapted to cope and survive),
my very identity as a person… was a disease… (WTF!!!???) Now
that's some massive ignorance, abuse, discrimination and BULLSHIT! By the
very people there, PAID, to help me... Tch!
Please… please… I beg you… don’t
kill yourself… not when you have so many people who deserve to die
WAY MORE than you ever will.
And if you have to… Take them
with you. Strangle them if you can’t find any weapons. Grab them by
the hairs and smash their heads in the walls. They think they are so perfect,
so deserving of everything... so they’ll be so surprised, when they’ll
finally taste their own cruelty, that they won’t even defend themselves…
their stupid brain will freeze thinking “It can’t be happening
to me, I’m a good person!”. Mwahahahaha! Retards.
I saw people cry for their fellow students… thinking the murderer
became crazy from movies and videogames… They kept me from killing
people... as long as I watched them; I was out there taking my rage on someone.
Seeing people pretend to die was vengeful enough; it
and stopped me from going berserk!
You haven’t got a clue you stupid bitch! You think you’re hurt?
You’ll forget your friend in a few weeks… What I had to endure
from people like you… how it scarred me… what it turned me into…
I’ll have to live with it for the rest of my life.
But I’m grateful. Thank you. Thank you so much. For turning me evil.
For breaking me until I saw that I’m a person
That I deserve my own efforts first!
That you people don’t deserve my kindness.
You’re the ones who deserve to die.
It might actually be the greatest way to die… you wouldn’t have
to fight against your own survival instinct, you’d
finally unleash it!
All that powerful desire
to protect yourself
, to make people unable to hurt you, ever again…
Spreading into the world, a vengeance darker than the black plague, a calamity
with intent… sheer justice!
Ah~ That sounds like heaven itself to me~
Well, if you have to die from bullying, please do it this way… kill
until someone guns you down… then drag yourself, shooting some more
people, until they shoot you in the brain… like the zombie of rage
that they all turned you into… with small random act of sheer cruelty,
They poured their cruelly into you, mocking and destroying who you are,
until there's nothing left but their own violence, exploding back at them.
Then they wonder "why~ oh god why ~ why me~" Mwahahahahaha! I'm
I can't help but feel other people's pain and care, and I don't even feel
sorry for those people! Discriminating and treating like
shit anyone remotely different from them! Even within their own race and
, how can they be so full of loathing, it probably
started against themselves. They must really deserve to suffer, if even
I would enjoy to hurt them without a shred of guilt, oh yes they do~
But I don’t think that you should do it, as fun as it sounds. It wouldn’t
last very long and then you wouldn’t be able to enjoy anything…
since you’d be dead.
What I did is to discover myself and put myself first
I unleashed my survival instinct with a few rules that wouldn’t get
me into more troubles, like jail, or killed… You really don’t
need a gun to make people leave you the hell alone~ You can use your bare
hands. If you believe that you are defenseless, you’ll
even if you’re a pile of muscle.
That’s why people will bully and abuse you, not
because you deserve it but because you let them!
The official reason
is just a pretext. It’s the intent to hurt that makes someone dangerous,
you could have a bazooka but if all you want is hugs, you won’t be
much of a threat. But you don’t even need to strangle them with your
bare hands, words are powerful weapons.
“The pen is mightier than the sword” and not just because stabbing
an eye with it is way easier than stabbing a heart with a sword… It’s
much more distressing too… but you don’t
even need violence.
What you need is conviction!
If you tell them
to fuck off without a care, coldly
, like they’re insects…
that won’t be fun… They’re trying to live off your emotions,
your life force… if you freak out they’ll feel like they have
power. Don't give them the pleasure even if it hurts you.
Smile especially if you want to cry. You'll look invincible.
Even if they end up thinking that you're crazy for not crying when you should.
You'll show them true strength
even if they're
too stupid to understand! They're worst than retards, those just got unlucky,
but cruel people are stupid by choice! They put their own head up their
asses and refuse to see!
Kick them! Or even better, ignore them. They're unsightly.
Of course some people won’t stop trying no matter what. But they’ll
have a harder time pursuing you if you push them down the stairs…
and maybe they’ll break their neck and die~ They sure will think about
it twice before harassing you… and you can say that it was an accident
if you are close enough and do it discretely~ Hey at least you gave them
a chance to live.
But my point is… if you stand up for yourself
if you have the utter will… they’ll be scared to mess with you.
You can try to do push ups, but not to gain strenght,
but to see that you already had it all along!
You don't need muscle to bash their heads into the walls, the centrifuge
force is more than enough if you take a good swing… and no matter
how weak you are, after a few times, you'll damage and can even kill them.
Just persist! You can accomplish anything if you do.
Doing push ups will teach you that, it will show you that you CAN do them,
slowly doing more and more… you’ll be proud
, you’ll see that you can accomplish anything you
want anytime you choose to, if you persevere. It will
open your mind and you'll ooze self confidence.
Because even if you
don't have a strength or a skill, you'll know that YOU
eventually, if you choose! You can do anything else. I just
picked that one because I'm a nerd and it's the complete opposite of my
natural skills. If I could do 100 push ups in a row with my frail girly
body, I really can do anything!
YOU CAN TOO! Just use the energy that you're
wasting on self pity.
Make sure to eat right so your body and mind will be
. Animals prey and eat the weak and sickly. Make sure it’s
not you. Then it won’t matter as much if being a lone introvert nerd
makes you an easier target… because their bullshit won’t affect
you. You’ll know who you are. You’ll know how to defend yourself
if they don’t leave you much of a choice…
Read on self
at the hubbardtwppd cop site; my favorite is theThroat
The reason why the good guys triumphs in movies isn’t because they’re
good. It’s because when you do something for fun, you’ll back
off if someone kicks your ass hard enough, you'll think that exploiting
others isn’t worth the gain… But if you fight
to protect your very life
, you won’t really have the choice
to back down and let them kill you inside, you’ll
fight with everything you have
, your body will bring out strength
reserved for survival… and unleash more power than humanly possible…
someone who just want to bully you can’t challenge that… even
if they’re stronger and beat you up, even if they win and shatter
your bones, you won’t break. As long as you’ll have the will
to protect yourself with everything you’ve got… you’ll
be strong. As long as you stand up for yourself, even on your knees, they
won’t be able to take away your dignity.
Find that will to live!
Unleash it. It will
be so powerful that a mere look will be enough to make someone back off!
I can terrify men twice my size with a glare, even if they intent to harm
me. The will to kill, an aura of death itself, also comes from the will
to live, but choosing fighting instead of abdicating.
The will to die trying, to never stop defending yourself and your very life,
even if it kills you.
That much resolve... is really intimidating.
There's no greater power than life itself, and you can make it your own!
Just find the will to live!
If you laugh harder than them and goof around, the mockery will be on your
You don’t need to kill them to put them back in their places. You
only need to see that you can.
That you have the power over yourself
and won’t ever give it away!
But that would be nice, isn’t it~ It would even traumatize a few cops,
they sure love to make victims feel like they deserve it… and mock
They told me that guys couldn't possibly have assaulted me that badly, dragging
me by the hairs and all... that it couldn't have happened to me, that I
must be insane or on drugs... Assholes! I only called them for information
about my duty for other girls; I scared them away when I showed them what
might be my real psychopathic angry self! Hahaha! That probably discouraged
them more than being slapped on the hand by some cop.
Those cops would have destroyed someone completely if they treated this
way a sweet girl who got raped for it... They sure try a lot with I'm in
a kind mood. What the cops did is way more awful than any criminals! At
least those jerks do their rapist job properly! Don't
judge you stupid cop; it's the jury's job.
Yours is to take the suspect
away. Do your fucking job you pig!
Hey, you could even kill a few cops with that method! More of them will
always come to eventually kill you, even if they have to bring in a tank;
that would be a funny death! So you can spare some to add to the fun.
Cops are supposed to be the best examples by representing the law... but
they're just human... and some get that job to be in position of power and
untouchable, protected by their buddies, while they do their crimes... One
beat the hell out of his wife but was so loved at work that no one wanted
to help the poor woman...
Tch. Wake up from your illusions people! You're on your own! But you DO
You're only as safe as you're willing to fight for yourself!
SO DO IT!!!
You have options. You can live the rest of your life with a smile telling
jerks to fuck off. Or you can shoot a few and die gunned down with a hard
and brief laugh. That sounds like the greatest fun, but if you add
up all the joys that you’d get in the rest of your life
would be greater than the joy of killing a few assholes… among so
many... so it wouldn't make much of a difference, it'd be meaningless.
So don’t mind them, they’re worst than insects. At least worms
return the death to the earth to help new life grow, and they aerate the
earth, making tunnels to bring the water deeper so plants won't drown...
Maybe the purpose of those idiots is to provoke your
drive for life to ignite
... to let go of all the bullshit that is
demanded of you everyday by other fools... and make you finally ask yourself:
What do YOU want to be happy?
It's your life,
that's what matters: Your opinion.
Next: Hit by an ambulance
Lisa Of Shades
11 September 2013