Uncommon sense ~ How to suicide ~ Wrist slitting
My attempt at attempting:
I actually tried to try this one, when I was only in elementary school.
It's not the bullying and sexual abuse that really got to me, but the
fact that even the cops didn't want to believe me; that my mother pushed
me away telling me "not to bother her with my problems" I was
denied comfort and affection to build my self confidence. She told me
"they must do it for a reason, so you must deserve it, try to please
them harder". But that only rewarded and encouraged more abused,
since I was forbidden to at least defend myself. So I felt utter despair,
because there was nothing I could try... Well, I did punch a lot of people
and in the end I punched my mother too! Best day of my life, ever! I'm
so glad that I stayed alive for that!
When I tried to kill myself, I took a kitchen knife and sat in the dark...
but there was something inside of me telling me not to do it, it felt
as if someone else was controlling my body. It’s the first time
I met my survival instinct. I thought he was pure evil with his aggressively,
but all he ever did was protect me, and he was the only one who ever wanted
But to make my rational brain shut the hell up, I left the house in the
middle of the night, hoping that the cold winter would numb my body and
My rational mind told me that it would be nice to say farewell to a friend
of my mother, since she was kind to me. I fell for it; she grabbed me
and took me in the house.
I never tried again, but I thought about it everyday for years, trying
to find how to win against that force inside myself... but I ended up
making it my ally against the world and I'm happy now~ Because no matter
what happens, no matter how lonely I could get, I know that he'll be there
to protect me just as strongly... and I'll be okay~
How to do it properly, learning from my mistakes:
When I tried to cut my wrist, I would have done it "across the road".
It wouldn't have worked. If I really persevered into the pain and horror
I would have had to cut my tendons to reach the bigger and deeper veins;
I would have lost mobility in my hand... That's why they say "down
so you can cut deeper. The superficial veins would
clot before bleeding out.
Going in the cold was also a bad idea. A lower temperature would have
constricted my veins, reducing the blood flow. That's why it's best to
do it in a warm bath, to dilate them so they will gush out faster than
you'll clot. You can also relax in one without the dying, you
don’t need anything complicated to unwind.
But cutting deep enough would be really hard and painful... it would quickly
reach a higher horror than the one that you're trying to escape, so your
survival instinct would kick in and stop you... Or you'd see yourself
that it’s just making it worst and you'd end up with a scar and
a few mental labels that would just make it even harder for you.
make better sure to get it right, slitting the throat would be more effective.
From one ear to the other like a big deep smile.
You'd really have to push hard. If you fail that would really give you
a huge scar and scare people off...
I guess you can always say jokes like "Oh I worked at a slaughterhouse
and they mistook me for a cow/pig".
You can always try the groin. It’d be best if you looked into an
anatomical model for the major arteries, but I think it's where the leg
meets the crotch... If you fail it would be more discreet. Unless you
have sex but you can always say "Oh I like it rough." I'm not
sure if you could reach them. Well, try to cut off your leg eventually
you'll reach them.
Here's a big image of the Major
arteries of systemic circulation
I have a big scar line on top of my wrist and when people ask why I say
"Oh, I tried to kill myself, but I cut on the wrong side." I
love gore humor so much~~~ Everyone does, I'm just more honest. Why do
you think death comes as the first idea in a pinch, certainly not because
it's the best one.
would you feel to finally find a lover, put your best to build a relationship,
and then come back home to a bloody scene of bathtub horror? Devastating.
It's going to be for your parents too, especially your mother who suffered
to squeeze you out... and wipe your snot, throw ups, piss and shit...
waking up by your strident shrieks, for years, everyday. And you think
that you have it hard with cleaning up your own messes
So while she thinks that you're about to blossom into the word, you just
slash it all in her face. If she's such a bitch, then scream or just punch
But “Avoid. Ignore. Forget”
can go a long way~
The opposite of love isn’t hate
; that’s still passion.
. Work on that.
Well, if you're going to cut your wrist, do it right. Don't do that self
harm nonsense. I understand, that's all the more reason to know it's pure
absurdity from every possible angles. If you want to know wtf about that,
read my Health~
Coping ~ Self harm
it doesn't even work! Look how deep this cut is, you can see the fat.
It's slashed to the bone! (The image is a link to the original site and
much bigger size, it's even worst when you see more clearly.)
But the person failed anyway.
Ended up dying from stabbings in the chest!!!
The survival instinct is more powerful than will power itself. So when
you have that much resolve...
You really could overcome anything else and live
Many people post fake pictures of it online... thinking it's cool. But
don't fool yourself.
It's not going to be a glamorous death.
You're going to look foolish no matter what you do
If you fail, people will see your shame every time you shake hands, and
If you succeed, you won't be able to live with anything at all, not even
the good stuff.
Enjoy the simplest things, like the photo, have a laugh and let go~ Or
go grab a butter knife and persevere~
But you might as well put those efforts into something
Next page: Gun shot
Lisa Of Shades
4 September 2013