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Uncommon sense ~ Life & death ~ The right question


Night sky tree universeTo understand life and death you just need to ask yourself the right question. And it's not "Is there life after death" or "Is there a heaven, purgatory and hell."

Death is a part of life, and life is a part of death. They're the same thing; just one eternal existence, in all possible direction, both in time and space.

Since we're trapped in a time line, in a body, this concept is completely beyond what we know... but if we open our mind, if we let go of preconceived ideas... we can truly see... everything.


I have adrenal fatigue. It turns out that medicine isn't helping us. A simple hydrocortisone cream replaced my own hormones and atrophied my glands even more. So when I ran out, I got an acute adrenal crisis and no possibilities to go to a hospital.

I've seen death up close many times, but never like this...

I was literally on my death bed, contemplating the end. And then I asked myself "What is after death..." I couldn't believe that it was the end. Because:

"In physics, the law of conservation of energy states that (...) energy can be neither created nor destroyed, but can change form." (More about that and Einstein at wikipedia)

"Nothing is lost nothing is created everything is transformed." Antoine Lavoisier, French nobleman and (...) widely considered to be the "Father of Modern Chemistry.

So the energy that makes me exists, let's call it a soul, has to make me go on somehow.

But then my inner self, my voice of reason, which I rely a lot on for guidance, told me: "It's not the right question. Ask the right one, and you will have your answer."

I wondered what it could be... my mind was particularly opened as I was slowly ready to let go of everything we think is...

And then I asked:

"What does the universe looks like... outside of matter... outside of time...?"

Then... I saw it. I didn't see life after death, death, or life... I saw everything in existence. I saw through God's eyes.

I saw the branches of a tree, moving in every direction, then splitting in another infinity of directions, and so on... the possible effects and futures... then I looked back and looked at the roots, the causes, splitting into the same eternity... endless possibilities to reach the same point and to move forward.

Then I saw the forest, endless roots and branches for all forms of life; not just humans, but animals, plants and insects too... and even smaller living organisms... and bigger too! I saw the forest spread in the infinity on every direction... into the past and future... and side ways into other parallel possibilities.

It spread in the whole universe...

I saw all that was, all that there is, all that will be... even if it was an overwhelming blur, I could feel eternity go through me, falling into it. It was as magnificent as it was terrifying.

So I hold on to my life...

And then I said "I am not ready for this..." I now believe that the purpose of life is to be set in space and time, so we won't feel lost. As intelligent as I am, I'm not evolved enough to take in that much information all at once.

I think by slowly learning the laws of causalities, the cause to effect, of our own actions and life, we can understand how to navigate through an infinity of eternity; without having our consciousness shatter and our identity diluted in so much information.

I doubt that a spirit can learn to be this strong from only one life time, reincarnation makes sense; if we did it once, we can do it again with another chance.

Trials are the best teachers
but everything is meaningful; the more variety of experiences, beings and lives, the better.

I saw that absolutely everything exists, everything is possible. Maybe not for me in particular, maybe not in this time line, or maybe not even on this planet... but birds fly, fish breathe under water... you never know what awaits you if you move forward on your branch. Sometimes you have to walk backwards to find the one that will lead you closer to what you want. But the possibilities are endless...

This gave me an immense sense of hope. I didn't dwell on the fact that I might not get what I want right away, right now, in this body and lifetime.

All I felt is joy to know that absolutely everything exists and is possible.

It's very likely that I will get to experience all of it, after or before, since time isn't like a linear river but a vast ocean.

The bad like the good, because everything simply is... I'll find a way to be amazed at all its wonders.

Then I asked "What can I do to save my life?"

My mind wasn't as opened, I returned to my present, but it was still welcoming. So I got my answer...

And it was simple... to get to the grocery store... even crawl if I have to... and get good greens since I ran out of proper food in the 3 days I fought just to breathe... and give my body some life energy so I can prolong my own.

I did it, one step at the time, one bite at the time... and little by little, my very vital organs rebuild themselves, got stronger, and now I feel very alive.

Even if my mind has returned to my point in eternity, I will never forget... that existence has no end, or start, no actual life or death, life extends in all directions endlessly even before birth.

So keep hope... because there is no such thing as death, everything is in perpetual change, some are just bigger than others... it simply opens you new possibilities~

Have respect for all forms of life, we're all part of the same whole; and since time is so fluid, maybe it's actually who you've been or will be.

Hell, heaven, it's about how you take care of your own existence and what you spread around you, it happens in your present. It's called a gift, so appreciate it.

Don't get on your knees to pray, make it happen. Move forward~

Enjoy~


I discovered later that what I saw is theories of the quantum physics, I tried to read about it but it was way too advanced, even for me.

Yet it was more than an idea, it was as if a veil was removed from my sides and allowed my mind to truly open. I saw and felt it with my whole being. As if knowledge was poured into me. It was amazing~

I hope that you won't need to end up on your death bed to open your mind and heart to the world. Beyond society and the ads, more precious than any of your desires:

Life in its completely raw essence and the pure enjoyment of it in itself, without needing any other reason to be satisfyingly happy... than being alive!

No matter what happens, one way or another, you always will be~

Enjoy~


Lisa Of Shades
3 september 2013


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I wrote files after it happened, and I'll put them here. I'm scared to read my stuff so I won't correct it much, since spontaneity is important... If you have the courage to read more, you're welcome to my delirious epiphanies:
 


What the universe truly looks like (after death) and hell too



Ah Christianity, they make good movies. But you don't actually believe that's what's after death do you?

I almost died many times, and I felt death very near once... I asked... "what does the universe looks like... outside of the body (since Einstein said no energy is created or lost, I assume that the electricity that makes my body works would live on in another form...) outside of the material realm... where time would lose it's meaning... outside of time...

For a split second... I saw the theory... I saw the universe in a different way... and I understand why we HAVE to be locked in time and space...

Why we have to experience so many things, even the bad...

The future... is made of many paths that we can take, it's not only a line... many lines, bigger, smaller, like a tree... from how doable it is and likely to happen... (like winning the lottery would be a small line, yet possible... like a plane crashing on your house while you sleep... and waking up to get food would be a big line.)... once you walk a path, make a choice, it leads somewhere, it won't end on another line (like if you eat cake all day, you won't lose weight...)... the other path still exist... even if you aren't on them at that moment... they exist for others, and the possibility still exist even if you can't access it... the past... also has many lines... It's like the branch of a tree, but also the roots, joining in the center, the line you are aware of... but if you look up and dig, you see that more exists... and th

ere are many trees... unlimited futures, unlimited pasts, unlimited presents, endless possibilities... that's what time truly looks like... and when you are out of it... you can see it all... the past, the futures, all that could be... become IS... and you have to navigate in it by PURE WILL.

And I'm just talking about time, add space and all things... you see everyone, every living thing... and all their lines too...

People can barely understand the consequence of their actions and understand why they became the way they are... do you think their mind, their spirit, their vital energy... would be able to BEAR what existence truly looks like!!!? We can barely cope with ONE day.

But we learn... through suffering, through being happy... through BOTH... even when we fall in the lowest low... we still have the possibility to learn something and become stronger... even to enjoy something.

The universe will always balance itself of those 2 energy, the good and bad, positive and negative...

It's not a war, it's harmony.

When you gain something, you lose something.

When you lose something, you gain something.

There is good and bad about EVERYTHING.

The rest is how you look at it, how you appreciate it.

Rich people have the biggest dramas...

Poor people in the street are free of many responsibilities and demands that makes us suffer.

It's all about choosing what you prefer, accepting the other side of the medal, and enjoying the brighter side.

Paradise is when you find a way to either reach what you chose, or simply enjoy what you managed to get...
Hell is when you torture yourself ungratefully... that's why greed is a sin... it makes you miserable and blind to what you have... how can this not be a hell...

Emotions makes an echo in eternity... the energy isn't limited by time... we can feel it a long time in the future... but also in the past before it happened... I had dreams, presentiments... that couldn't be explained by logic... so when you are out of time, out of the material realm... if you hold on to bitterness, to regret, to ungratefulness, to hate... it echoes forever and taint your whole eternity... and that's what hell is like...

I believe in second chances... it takes many tries to be able to bear the knowledge of eternity... to be strong enough...

And suffering is necessary. Otherwise we wouldn't try to get out of our comfort zone and become stronger.


Lisa Of Shades
4 August 2012


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What I saw when I almost died


To add to the first file…
I didn’t see as in visions or hallucinations, I didn’t actually die so I didn’t get to the tunnel of light… But I noticed a theory; I had an epiphany of a concept… by asking the right question…

That time isn’t a line; it gets divided in possibilities, path to go into the future, and different paths that can reach a similar present… and all the trees of every other life form, a forest of possibilities.

Being out of time and out of material, we’d be able to see everything that was, is, and will be, all their possibilities, all that could be, of every living form that was, will be, is, and could be, or could have been… or can be…

This is how god sees…

If you are outside, and able to see the big picture, by taking a step back and thinking, you can notice the consequences of your actions, what brought you the situation you are in, what could come of it if it continues in the same direction, what could interrupt it… The cause to effect, the laws of causalities… You can change the present… to affect the future… But if you were out of time itself… you could change the past, to alter what would be, to you, the whole, the eternity… All there is.

People who pray have noticed this, but not the whole picture…

We are not aware of our subconscious, of every vital functions and communication for hormones production, repairs (Only the tip of the ice berg… but we even shut pain down with drugs, and ignore distress)… but imagine if you could be aware of it all… some subconscious thoughts gets rewired into the speech center of the brain and people panic thinking they hear voices and are mad, when they can simply listen, take charge and see it as simply internal information. Not god or the devil’s voice…

But what if, and this is my new point, we had an even deeper lever of sub-consciousness… one that is free of the material and time, not locked in hat is only in front of you, not locked in what was yesterday and could be tomorrow (that’s a miracle to figure out for most people)… but way beyond this…

Seeing the future ahead…

Now when we sleep, our consciousness is altered and our mind is more opened… and I had a few experiences, and read many, or dreams that came to pass… In vivid strange details that happens only once in a life time… probably why it had an echo in the past, strong enough for my mind to receive it…

It happens… many are quacks trying to abuse the insecurities of people, like the church selling prayers so people won’t have to blame themselves or take responsibility… powerless desperate fearful people are so easier to control…

But some are real…

What if that consciousness, sub-sub one… was in all living things… the whole eternity would have a consciousness… and like our body with many small organism doing things of their own and thinking independently… this might actually be god.

We are energy, everything is energy… will is a powerful energy that can give birth to anything… but what if will alone was enough to move events… hard to believe when it’s only one person… but if hundreds, millions of people had the same burning wish… could it move the energy in another direction… and trigger coincidental events to happen?

“Help yourself and the sky will help you”… when we start something, we end up getting opportunities… by chance… like we gave a push with movement and the universe followed… some are of course the laws of causalities… but others seem to be really out of the blue, out of logic, an act of god… synchronicities…

The whole planet was angry at china at one point, soon after they had earthquakes and tsunamis, I forgot the details, but it was a chain of event that started with world wide anger to natural devastation… negativity can alter your PH, make you exhale toxins… and if negativity reaches that sub-sub consciousness… our collective mind that creates the universe’s consciousness (well, at least earth) perhaps it could trigger disasters…

And if we listen to disasters… and step back to the source, we often see us… as the cause… doing things thinking only of ourselves and hoping that the consequences will go away to someone else… But we’re all part of the world… we’re all god. And we all have a responsibility for this world…

We can’t just sit and prey people… god’s consciousness is our own… we need to listen… to listen to ourselves, to the cause and effect… so we can change the future… and make a better past… and a livable present.

And prevent eternity from turning into hell.


Lisa Of Shades
23 October 2012


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After death


To understand what's "after death"
you must first understand what life is.


Lisa Of Shades
8 November 2012


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Key to health


The key to health is to abandon all hopes.
Don't hope that it will get better on it's own, it will get WORST.
Don't hope that a magic pill will make it all go away,
it will mask the symptoms and explode much worst!

MAKE it get better.
MAKE yourself get better.
DO better to yourself.

Abandon all hopes.
Make it real.


Lisa Of Shades
13 November 2012


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Beyond time and matter - learning to navigate


I wrote the theory that I saw when I almost died...
What there is beyond time and matter?

Every single possibility of everything, backward, onward and parallel eternally....

Now how do we learn to navigate this...
To influence this...

By being trapped in a single line... to fully grasp the consequences of our choices and where they lead us...

To learn to make choices...

To learn to navigate... eternity...

Otherwise we'd just jump randomly completely lost...
Completely confused...
Until our awareness just shatters in the immensity of the information,
Unable to make sense of any...

This is also what I saw... what I feared enough to say
"I am not ready for this.."
And cling to life...
And find the energy against all hope...

to then ask what I need to live and go get it...

Simple food...

I feel a bit sorry for my choices... basically I choose not to be part of life...
Because after being assaulted and abused so much I really literally can't take it anymore.
I got, or almost, Addison’s disease and those who have it can die from stress (we all can…), like people with a heart condition (heart attack, and failure) adrenal crisis was as close to death as I ever got, and I tasted it more often than I probably should have...

So I guess this is my choice... and I hope you can forgive it, my beloved better half... or better third...
Hahaha! The holy trinity: emotional brain, rational brain and primal brain!

My beloved beast... my protective angel... my survival instinct...

Maybe you are indeed proud of me... for finally putting my need first... and taking care of them myself.

Without ever waiting for anyone else than you: myself.

(Added:)

I did it, I saved myself, by myself, and I can do it again!

But I won't neglect myself this bad ever again...


Lisa Of Shades
13 November 2012
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